Jan 26, 2014 21:11:54 GMT -5 |
Post by Arthur W. Kirkland on Jan 26, 2014 21:11:54 GMT -5
push forward and breathe, just breathe
tagged: kiku / notes: hopefully this works!
They will regret this. They will...
Angry thoughts were one thing, acting on them was completely different, and offered up quite a bit more pain in exchange for the insolence. According to the staff at the academy, Arthur didn’t seem to understand the connection between punishment and 'wrongdoing,' he didn’t have the proper filter and mindset that a mutant child should possess by this point in their education. Weeds children were expected to obey without question, to have very few independent thoughts of their own (at least thoughts that challenged what the government supporters attempted to shove down their throats), and to be as meek and subservient as their innocent, doll-like faces suggested. He would glare at the adults with those bright, brazen eyes of his, staring at them as if the jaded, sharp pieces of his regard could cut into them as viciously as all the times they’ve ever cut into him.
He knew their punishments as intimately as breathing, and they’ve tried nearly everything on him without causing any visible, permanent damage. His bones would remain unbroken and he had no noticeable scars or markings that would hurt his chances of receiving a contract when he was older, or so the adults explained—appearance was just as much of a selling point as usefulness or charm.
Today, he’d challenged a teacher in the middle of lecture in front of the entire class. Such a thing in front of other students was usually punished far more severely than others, to warn other children against such audacious behaviour. So, he was made an example before being sent to the administration office where he’d receive a much more thorough reprimand. And now, he had to make up for the time that they’d kept him away from his classes while the other students enjoyed an early break.
Arthur’s body hurt—he could already feel the tender swelling beneath the reddened skin in places that wouldn’t be easily revealed, covered by clothing and his stubborn facade, a face that refused to give the slightest indication that what had been done to him had damaged him in any way, damaged him in a way that went deeper than the fresh bruises strewn across his skin. Most others saw him as strong and resilient, with the way he consistently went against the current of the system, with how he began to retaliate against his childhood tormentors, and how he took every beating that was handed to him with only a grimace, with sharp insults and threats always ready at his tongue. Nobody could ever see the brokenness, just how frightened and vulnerable he truly felt, as vulnerable as any thirteen year old boy subjected to the same brand of misery.
And here he was, yet again, making up schoolwork for his trouble. The unforgiving desk was uncomfortable against his recently abused body and he couldn’t wait to leave it behind. The teacher was currently gone, only checking in on him at random intervals, leaving calm warnings that if he didn’t cooperate that he would be sent straight back to the admin’s office for more. Her cotton soft words carrying such a severe message sent miniscule chills up his spine and his pencil continued to scratch against the paper. The door remained open and Arthur could hear the occasional quiet shuffling of students walking past, some of them casting quick glances into the silent classroom. Those who hadn’t witnessed it, could only guess as to why he was the only one still working.
Time passed and the silence in the room almost became a presence, pressing closer, an overbearing pressure against things better left unspoken. He was halfway finished with his work, but the same ugly anger still coursed through his blood, every small movement in his chair reminding him exactly what had been done to him. A stone felt like it’d been lodged in his throat and he couldn’t hold the pressure any longer. With a small quiver passing through his body, fat, silent tears finally escaped from his iron grasp. He could feel them, quick, hot, and wet against his cheeks. All he could do was face away from the entrance, wrapping his arms around his torso—as if to keep himself from breaking at the seams— as he leaned forward in his desk, not minding the sharp pain from the pressure over the bruises, and tried to stifle as much of his anger and grief as he could. He knew that crying was unsuitable for a boy at thirteen, so he kept quiet, biting at his inner cheek to force himself to stay relatively calm. He could only hear the faint ticking of the classroom clock as the minutes passed and the wetness continued to silently dampen his cheeks.
As soon as the worst of it was over, he began to wipe away the evidence with the back of his sleeve, he focused once more on the assignments, the ink against the white of the paper still looking a bit blurry around the edges. Cursing quietly, he rubbed at his eyes again, wondering at just how blotchy the skin around his eyes must have looked by his attempts to appear as seemingly unaffected as the other Weeds students.
Looking over his papers, he noticed that he still had academic work to complete, although there was also a lone paper that he had yet to even touch regarding household chores and other such activities that would be pleasing to a future contract holder. It was the material that he had challenged. It was supposed to be the main focus of this year. Arthur felt the same prickling heat rise once more beneath his skin as he shoved that particular assignment to the bottom of his workload. Somewhat preoccupied, he failed to notice other sounds or movements in the room, a heavy frown forming over his mouth as he leafed through assigned readings he also had yet to complete.
Angry thoughts were one thing, acting on them was completely different, and offered up quite a bit more pain in exchange for the insolence. According to the staff at the academy, Arthur didn’t seem to understand the connection between punishment and 'wrongdoing,' he didn’t have the proper filter and mindset that a mutant child should possess by this point in their education. Weeds children were expected to obey without question, to have very few independent thoughts of their own (at least thoughts that challenged what the government supporters attempted to shove down their throats), and to be as meek and subservient as their innocent, doll-like faces suggested. He would glare at the adults with those bright, brazen eyes of his, staring at them as if the jaded, sharp pieces of his regard could cut into them as viciously as all the times they’ve ever cut into him.
He knew their punishments as intimately as breathing, and they’ve tried nearly everything on him without causing any visible, permanent damage. His bones would remain unbroken and he had no noticeable scars or markings that would hurt his chances of receiving a contract when he was older, or so the adults explained—appearance was just as much of a selling point as usefulness or charm.
Today, he’d challenged a teacher in the middle of lecture in front of the entire class. Such a thing in front of other students was usually punished far more severely than others, to warn other children against such audacious behaviour. So, he was made an example before being sent to the administration office where he’d receive a much more thorough reprimand. And now, he had to make up for the time that they’d kept him away from his classes while the other students enjoyed an early break.
Arthur’s body hurt—he could already feel the tender swelling beneath the reddened skin in places that wouldn’t be easily revealed, covered by clothing and his stubborn facade, a face that refused to give the slightest indication that what had been done to him had damaged him in any way, damaged him in a way that went deeper than the fresh bruises strewn across his skin. Most others saw him as strong and resilient, with the way he consistently went against the current of the system, with how he began to retaliate against his childhood tormentors, and how he took every beating that was handed to him with only a grimace, with sharp insults and threats always ready at his tongue. Nobody could ever see the brokenness, just how frightened and vulnerable he truly felt, as vulnerable as any thirteen year old boy subjected to the same brand of misery.
And here he was, yet again, making up schoolwork for his trouble. The unforgiving desk was uncomfortable against his recently abused body and he couldn’t wait to leave it behind. The teacher was currently gone, only checking in on him at random intervals, leaving calm warnings that if he didn’t cooperate that he would be sent straight back to the admin’s office for more. Her cotton soft words carrying such a severe message sent miniscule chills up his spine and his pencil continued to scratch against the paper. The door remained open and Arthur could hear the occasional quiet shuffling of students walking past, some of them casting quick glances into the silent classroom. Those who hadn’t witnessed it, could only guess as to why he was the only one still working.
Time passed and the silence in the room almost became a presence, pressing closer, an overbearing pressure against things better left unspoken. He was halfway finished with his work, but the same ugly anger still coursed through his blood, every small movement in his chair reminding him exactly what had been done to him. A stone felt like it’d been lodged in his throat and he couldn’t hold the pressure any longer. With a small quiver passing through his body, fat, silent tears finally escaped from his iron grasp. He could feel them, quick, hot, and wet against his cheeks. All he could do was face away from the entrance, wrapping his arms around his torso—as if to keep himself from breaking at the seams— as he leaned forward in his desk, not minding the sharp pain from the pressure over the bruises, and tried to stifle as much of his anger and grief as he could. He knew that crying was unsuitable for a boy at thirteen, so he kept quiet, biting at his inner cheek to force himself to stay relatively calm. He could only hear the faint ticking of the classroom clock as the minutes passed and the wetness continued to silently dampen his cheeks.
As soon as the worst of it was over, he began to wipe away the evidence with the back of his sleeve, he focused once more on the assignments, the ink against the white of the paper still looking a bit blurry around the edges. Cursing quietly, he rubbed at his eyes again, wondering at just how blotchy the skin around his eyes must have looked by his attempts to appear as seemingly unaffected as the other Weeds students.
Looking over his papers, he noticed that he still had academic work to complete, although there was also a lone paper that he had yet to even touch regarding household chores and other such activities that would be pleasing to a future contract holder. It was the material that he had challenged. It was supposed to be the main focus of this year. Arthur felt the same prickling heat rise once more beneath his skin as he shoved that particular assignment to the bottom of his workload. Somewhat preoccupied, he failed to notice other sounds or movements in the room, a heavy frown forming over his mouth as he leafed through assigned readings he also had yet to complete.
CODED BY DUCKIE OF GS